Dear reader: I'm taking a little break from little townhome love.
Well, little or long - like Ross and Rachel, I'm not actually sure about the status of this break. It may be short, and I may return refreshed and rejuvenated in a few short weeks. Or it may be permanent - I may just be done with all of this.
There are so many reasons.
This blog is no longer what I wanted it to be. It once started as an outlet - an outlet for my rants, a public forum for my ramblings, a place for me to toss my two cents' worth of opinions on all things parenting out into the world. A way for me, at home with my third baby, to feel connected to other adults, to other moms, to an online community of parents that didn't exist when my older boys were babies. A way for me to reconnect with myself, to start writing again, to rekindle that passion and reactivate my sleepy mom brain. And a way to record a small portion of my life as a mom, a snapshot of a certain time in my family's life while my boys were a certain age.
And it was all that, for a time. But it somehow changed, over time. As it became a source of income and I had to be more conscious of content. As I added a comments section, and readers started responding and asking questions. My little townhome love somehow turned very Stepford. I even got myself a stalker at one point, harmless but creepy, which made me hyper aware of what I was writing at all times. My posts became very stilted, and I just don't feel comfortable sharing my life in the same way any more. There is something very eerie and uncomfortable about seeing someone trying to literally be you. Beyond creepy.
And there are things going on in my life right now, big things taking up a lot of head space, things too big to write about but too big not to write about if I am writing - so it's better not to write.
So I'm taking a break.
Thank-you to you all for sharing this journey with me. Thank-you for reading. Though it has changed over time from what I wanted it to be, little townhome love is very special to me. And I may be back.